I Should Be Dead: Four Quarters, One Life

Childhood Survival, Success, Collapse, and Redemption.

Book Overview

By every medical account, Tommy Ball should be dead. Instead, he’s here to tell you that survival is possible.

Born into parental addiction that has spanned generations, his family was destroyed by alcohol and prescription pills. Yet he rose to become a multiple all-conference Division I performer in football and track at Appalachian State, then an executive sales and operations leader, trying to break the generational curse. He was close until the same drive that fueled his success nearly destroyed him.

Using the structure of a football game (four quarters that mirror life’s seasons), he shows how inherited trauma, corporate pressure, and family addiction pushed him to rock source bottom, and how he found the strength to finally break the cycle.

What Readers Will Discover

First Quarter: Childhood Survival and the Birth of Performance-Based Identity

How trauma creates hypervigilance that can fuel both success and destruction

The cost of learning that love is conditional on performance

Building resilience in chaos while losing the ability to rest in peace

Second Quarter: Early Success Masking Deeper Struggles

How athletic excellence and academic achievement can hide inner turmoil

The transition from survival skills to high achievement

When the very skills that save you begin to imprison you

Third Quarter: The Collapse That Strips Away Every Illusion

The anatomy of high-functioning addiction

How success can accelerate rather than prevent self-destruction

The moment when asking for help becomes a matter of life and death

Fourth Quarter: Recovery, Redemption, and the Daily Choice to Stay Alive

What makes recovery stick after multiple failed attempts

Rebuilding relationships damaged by addiction

The ongoing work of breaking generational patterns

Why This Book Matters

This is not just another recovery memoir. It’s a blueprint for transformation that speaks to:

High achievers who succeed on the outside while falling apart within
Adult children of addicts who fear they’re destined to repeat family patterns
Parents worried about what they’re passing down to their children
Corporate leaders dealing with the hidden epidemic of workplace addiction
Anyone who has ever felt broken and wondered if change is possible

The Message

What you do, or don’t do, is bigger than yourself. The ripple effects of your choices echo through generations.

Publications Information

Publisher: [To be announced]
Release Date: [Coming 2025]
Format: Hardcover, Paperback, eBook, Audiobook
Pages: Approximately 300

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Speaking Tie-In

Tommy is available for book launch events, corporate presentations, and conference keynotes. His book provides the framework for powerful presentations on breaking cycles, authentic leadership, and workplace recovery.

Contact for book events: tball@fourthquarterleadership.com

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